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The basis dividing between being happy and not

2010-05-12T00:48:00.004+08:00

And so...

What if i wasn't the type of guy she would like?

Would i leave or move forward together?

And what if all these were not being clarified,

Would it do both of us good for the future?

Sometimes, i would just feel utterly terrible instantly.

Being a financial consultant is one of the reason among the rest.

And i could sense that more and more people have these terrible feelings which will haunt them as they progresses on in life.

Being in a relationship, would be to share all these feelings.

Believing that your other half would trust and support you emotionally.

THIS would be the basis of being in a relationship.

death

2010-04-15T16:06:00.001+08:00

i'm BIASED. i'll never want to see you again after the project. *hmph*

Believe

2010-04-11T16:34:00.005+08:00

Its difficult... ...
and after reading someone's blog made me wanting to express something over here.

It is really about timing.
That was and will be the most frequent reasons for breakup.

Somehow i do feel a tinge of irony in relationship.
Girls would want to find a guy who's dependable so that they will feel safe being together with them.
However, the same guy would most likely wants to carve out something to be successful in life and hence might have not much time to accompany the girl at certain point in life.
And girls may not fancy another set of guys, who most likely have time for the girls(because the guys do not really know what to do in life).

Hey, i've waited for almost about 2 sets of 4 months and i do grumble at times. I couldn't fathom how she could put me just aside. But i know...

i know that she just dont want to have any regrets
i know that some things happen just once in a lifetime
i know that she have the character to take good care of herself
and i know that some things like dating, can wait... ...

I am not an independent guy.
Laughingly, i would need to be taken care of.
But it would be a big joke if i couldn't provide a good life for the girl i like in the future.
and that's why i have been learning to be independent to carve out something in life.

And so,
to all the couples out there,
if your other half have been neglected you in some from or another,
jokingly scold them that you've been neglected;
give them the encouragement that they need to carve out that "important results";
believe in them that they will be back stronger and thus more attractive;
and never neglect YOURSELF! ( If you are the one who will be out there, came back and saw your other half who couldn't take care of herself/himself, how sad would you feel?)

Have faith
and you should be the one to know your other half
isn't it?

愛情?

2009-10-17T14:41:00.007+08:00

愛情，
充滿歡愉，充滿甜蜜，
同時，
充滿欺騙，充滿苦澀，
只不過是一場互相哄騙的鬧劇。

無論如何喜歡另一個人，總無法擁有他或她的全部。
我們每個人，都擁有無法與別人分享，也不願與別人分享的過去。
愛過又失去，會否比從來沒有愛過好？

不要因為自己長相不如對方而放棄追求的打算，
長相只是一時的印象，真正決定能否結合主要取決於雙方的性格。
帥哥配醜女，醜女配帥哥，街上多的是。

女人要學會裝扮，不要拿樸素來作賣點，
不懂時尚，你就不是一個完整的女人。

平平淡淡才是真，這話說得沒錯，但也應該是激情過後的平淡。
然後再起激情，再有平淡，激情平淡應互相交替出現。
只有平淡而無激情的戀愛有甚麼意思？
只要你真心愛她，到死你也會有激情的。

愛情開始是互相縱容；最後卻淪為互相操控。
最真摯的愛情猶如寫作，不在乎揚名；只享受過程。
你不再需要猜測她的心意、也不用擔心她的行蹤。
不必害怕也許會在無意之間激怒她，不會懷疑她做任何事情的動機。

你們之間，有一點牽掛、卻不會到糾纏的程度。
你們之間，有一點想念、卻不會到傷心的地步。
你們之間，有一點依靠，卻不會到賴著對方到「你不照我的意思，我就死給你看！」的難堪。

簡簡單單，
即使是依靠著一起吃杯冬天冰淇淋，也會暖在心頭。
即使是無聊打個電話說想聽妳的聲音，雙方也會覺得很甜蜜。
即使是約會時漫無目的的四處逛，也會覺得很快樂。
對嗎？

所以，真摯和珍貴在於那份率真的觸動，
沒有計算後果，從心出發。
一切說清說楚，詳盡分析，
那便不是愛情，對嗎？
愛情會讓人有種莫名其妙的感覺，
愈解釋不來，證明你愛得愈泥足深陷。

Our world (Martians)

2009-03-06T00:16:00.004+08:00

I've read and heard alot about what guys should take note of about girls.

I'd understand that we do want to live a comfortable life.

And girls, let me assure you that (most) guys do have that ego to want to provide you with the best that we can.

When you keep telling us that you're envious of others, it hurts us and we're angry not because of you but becoz of ourselves... ...

We do want to treat you like princesses (following your sometimes "ironic" rules), but we're stressed out in the not so "humane" world.

And so, please understand us.

We do not have many rules.

Other than having that frequent "lust" lingering in our mind,

we would be very happy to know that you'd appreciate us.

and then... ...

说穿了，

男生要的只不过是女生的认可，

哪怕是一句出自内心的

谢谢

或

我爱你

8th Week

2009-02-22T17:12:00.002+08:00

Omg... Keep losing my focus...

Did nothing proud in particular.

Start to "fervently" (I don't know if there's this word) draw up a timetable of what i MUST (and not want to) do

Time flies nowadays especially when i needed them.

And i'm not young anymore... (Lol, the girls say so)

So ya... don't plan "rubbish" like dota-ing in your timetable.

But let me leave here and play another game of dota... I will plan the timetable the next time round...

Oh... how crap am i...

-.-"

Sinema

2009-02-08T14:48:00.003+08:00

Yo, introducing sinema to you guys and gals.

http://www.sinema.sg/oldschool/

Its right behind cathay cineplex and you've got to climb up a total of about 120 steps from cathay to reach the place.

It not only showcase local work but also to inspire the local filmmaking movement.

http://www.sinema.sg/oldschool/calendar/18-grams-of-love/

So A-gal sms-ed me on friday night asking me whether i would be free on saturday. So i suggested sinema and the above show. Lol... and she told me that she had been wanting to watch this over the past month too!

So u all can read the synopsis for what's the show about.

Below was what i thought about after leaving the show.

The same sentence were being used 5 times during the show, and each time when it was being said, it has a totally different meaning in it. To make it worse, the one listening to it misunderstand the intention of the one saying it.

So... it became rather complicated... It just proves that the same sentence will have different effects in different situation

All of the characters gave reasons on why they had chosen and love their respective partners. But they didn't let their partners know about it. That was i think the reason why the guy decided to change (frequent the gym + teaching PE instead of maths) thinking that he'll better suit the girl

(Well, we can also argue that the guy was low on confidence) Still, i wonder how many of you would have prefer the girl to let the guy know of her reason in being together with him.

Oops, 8th february le!

Thank you ~J~

2009-02-04T14:05:00.004+08:00

The following was written for a guy to understand her girl.

1、她看到你跟别的女生亲近一些就会生气（别说她小气，不信任你，她其实是在吃醋，这表示她十分在乎你）

2、她爱忧伤，爱掉泪（别怪她多愁善感，她只是缺乏安全感，你要知道，她很少会为别人流泪）

3、跟你在一起总爱玩失踪（别说她淘气，吓唬你，她只是爱看你急着找她的样子，证明一下她对你来说是重要的）

4、说：如果你不要她，她就去死（不要说她威胁你，她只是告诉你，对她来说，你比一切都重要）

5、她总假装生气转身离开（记住，她不是真地想走，离开时想要被挽留）

6. 她会突然冷淡你，或向你撒娇（别怪她孩子气，她只是想让你哄哄她）

7、.出去吃饭，她吃得很少说吃不了了，让你替她吃（别说她挑食或者浪费，她只是怕你吃不饱）

8、她总说她会帮你，让你有事找她（其实她知道她帮不了你什么，她只想让你知道你还有她，她永远在你身边陪你）

9、她说：我不高兴了（不要怪她无理取闹，她不是真的不开心，只是想你了，只是想要你几句安慰的话，哪怕是：乖~别闹了~）

10、她总说自己又胖了或者长得不够漂亮（不要觉得她嫉妒别人，她只是怕在你眼中不够完美）

11、她总说你看谁谁谁他们怎么怎么样（不要说她贪慕虚荣，总羡慕别人，她只是想让你知道怎样做能使她高兴）

12、她总是问：你在哪？你干什么呢？（她很关心你，只是想跟你说说话，你不给她发信息，她很矛盾，怕你在忙，但又忍不住想你，换了别人，爱干嘛干嘛，她不关心，所以请你一有时间就问候她一下，让她放心，让她知道你心里有她，她总是主动联系你，她会觉得她贱）

13、她说：天冷了，记得多穿衣服~ （不要嫌她烦，不要说她像你妈，你妈妈有时可能都比不上她对你的关心，换了别人，冻死也不关她的事，她知道你不傻，她只想让你知道她心里有你）

14、她说你看谁多有钱，长得多帅（你不用生气，在她眼里，你是最好的，她只是想让你为了她努力奋斗）

15、她不分场合的抱你，吻你（她不是炫耀什么，只是想让别人知道你俩有多好）

16、不论是过马路还是走在哪，她用手死死拽住你的胳臂（不要说她粘人，她只是告诉你她信任你）

17、她总是走在你的左边（不要说她多事，她只是想离你的心更尽一些）

18、在买东西时她总征求你的意见（别说她没主见，依赖你，她只是尊重你，凡事以你为先）

19、买东西她总买便宜的（别说她小气，她只是想为你省钱）

Updates

2009-01-25T19:05:00.002+08:00

Wa... super dull (the colour as well as the content) de blog

I'll be okie, as long as i can paint my life with colours

Wa... i'm super far behind

I'll be okie, as long as i continue in playing the game of 'catching up'

Well, i can write nothing more that's important.

January is over in a few days (So damn fast), i didn't do a lot but i tried.

My emotions are always in a mess.

Trying hard to get out of the comfort zone and yet be 'humane (in my context)'

Well, i should just concentrate on getting out of my comfort zone.

Just 5 days straight (the max i've done is only 3 days) of practising all the good habits and i'll be okie

Its new year eve and had received my first red packet for the year ^^

after the dream

2009-01-16T18:07:00.002+08:00

hey hey, dropping by to tell myself not to let my eyes shift elsewhere

straight ahead (the 4 main new year resolutions)...

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and i do miss a pretty lady.

and i do feel neglected by a pretty lady.

and i do want to go out with a pretty lady.

没有如果

2009-01-13T01:36:00.002+08:00

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过

若如果拿来当借口
那是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏

还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前你却不知道我爱你

我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天
别怕太快乐别怕失去我

如果如果如果如果如果
最后变成如果我也不能接受
错过错过错过错过错过
我比你更难过不会一错再错
嗯这次不要再轻易错过

Frustration being poured out ... ...

2008-12-31T13:38:00.006+08:00

Not all frustration are the same... crews from the pump room have all these

This was what it looked like

I finished their frustration in one gulp

Ended up still have to pay them...

I WANT it BADLY (Version 2)

2008-12-30T19:06:00.007+08:00

Its 1906 hrs right now. In about 29 hours, we'll be counting down.

As usual, i've been drifting this year just like the past 22 years. Although i'm not proud of what i've done, i've learned alot from the people i've mixed with.

Thank you.

It's time to put those i've learned into practice.

I've not seriously set any resolution in my life. I'm going to set it now in order to get rid of the "don't know what to do syndrome" whenever i'm awake. Staring into the ceiling and forcing myself back to sleep was just so... "time-wasting"?

1. I need a suntan first whether to use lotion or not. ( I dislike myself appearing in videos and pictures )

2. I must not skip any tutorials and labs unless i have completed all the questions in it.

3. I want to learn guitar.

4. To participate in AHM (Army Half Marathon)

5. and then to RUN a full marathon in Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2009

6. To be able to do 14 pull-ups even when i'm tired

7. Speak up more (even though i'll talk rubbish initially)

8. and then to let people understand what i really mean.

9. Be natural, even when i'm in "danger"

10. Dan (3) Da (4) Xin (1) Xi (4)

11. Be humble.

12. and consistent.

13. Be happy from within, 24/7

14. Accountable to myself.

15. Get rid of 3 irritating habits of mine.

16. To remember what i've done OR to blog down what i've down ( Only way to achieve this is to do something important every day in my life )

17. To know, remember and give well-wishes during their birthdays. ( I didn't know some of their birthday, especially my boss )

18. 12 X Top 8 MTGO in tournaments ( I have a lot of passion in card games )

19. To DO a 40,000 API in 6 months to qualify for the FASTTRACK 2009. Follow-up, follow-up( If i don't, i'll leave and i know i'll lose out ALOT )

20. To be a better son, a better boyfriend, and a better friend. ( And a me that i like )

21. To have no regrets whatsoever when i'm preparing to sleep. ( I think that'll cure my insomnia )

I hate to be competing with others. And i find no reasons for me to work, study and play hard.

Resolutions set are for me to improve myself.

Along the way, someone may not like what i do. Or i may even hate myself for doing or saying "rubbish"

But then, I don't care.

Because at the end of 2009, i'd know that i'd done and accomplished, so much more, comparing to the past.

blog lo

2008-12-19T01:02:00.002+08:00

Hmm... I'm too engrossed in two things.

On top of that, i wasn't really happy about my 'present' being destroyed.

I shall put those aside for the moment until weekdays come along.

There are 3 more days of road show left.

To cultivate the right mentality to do the right thing at the right time.

The target seems so far away.

Start running.

random -.-

2008-12-05T12:10:00.003+08:00

Well, haven been blogging for a long time.

So that means everything is all right?

Yapx! ^^

Just that i am still lazy...

Wahahahaha...

Please...

Try...

Cause i know what i hate...

Hmm... for not fulfilling the 900+ over presents (even though it seems that we're just joking about it).

Christmas is coming, and then the new year...

Will be fun ^^

Oops, i'm still blogging.

Rubbish...

2008-10-25T17:11:00.002+08:00

This world/country is getting pretty irritating...

Doing the unneccesary things to cover themselves...

Straits time reported that all 12 Julie's products and five other brands, are to be WITHDRAWN immediately from the shelves. And then stating that and adult weighing 60kg would have to eat 378 pieces of Julie's Golden Kaka Crackers EVERYDAY OF HIS LIFE to be in danger.

ZZZ... 1) I don't think that we'll even eat one-tenth the amount for a day. 2) Using common sense, one should eat in moderation, do things in moderation. Are we that IDIOTIC to stuff ourself with 378 pieces of biscuits?

If you (AVA) were to remove the biscuits stating that it's melamine contaminated... PLEASE remove all products from the shelves. The vegetables that we are eating everyday is full of pesticides, the meat that we are consuming may contain full of growth hormone which may harm our body.

I do understand the melamine milk scare back in China months back. The tolerance level for melamine were low. Moreover almost all of the babies would only have milk for their meals. Taking off the milk powder from the shelves were thus the correct thing to do.

Oh ya... And now with just ONE incident of food poisoning, Nissin is withdrawing all their cup noodles in Japan. Just one...

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More importantly... Can someone please advise me not to be guilty if i am to earn the amount of money i will be earning in the future...

My gain would mean that someone had parted their money to me.

I don't really have the heart if i ever knew the person will need the money more than i do.

But... the people living in this world are selfish... almost all.

Damn s***... look at the selling price of our daily needs... once it goes up, it hardly comes down even during this economic crisis. The hawker wouldn't want their profits to go down, the oil companies wouldn't want their revenue to fall, the government are finding ways to take more money from us...

The government... ... the GST, the power tariffs, the ERP, the run-down estates of potong pasir and hougang, the ever increasing healthcare cost and the ever stagnant population of Singaporeans. If you are still not aware, it is reported that only 65% of the population are Singaporeans.

Survival of the fittest... In this current dog-eat-dog world, looks like it's the money they're holding that determine how successful they are... And that's what that have made many people blinded... That's what made many people become self-centered. LOL... How about burning all the currencies away from this world... If i am given a wish, i will wish for all the money and financial statements to be burnt away.

I am one who can sleep on the streets... it's just that i'll feel sad for my parents.

I am not saying that it's wrong to be self-centered. I am not blaming any people.

Maybe it will be fair to take good care of myself... until when destruction comes along...

Just to clear all my thoughts and ideas before the exams...

2008-10-24T18:30:00.010+08:00

** Replace the "you" with "we" or "us"**

1. When you're just into a relationship, please argue and scold the other party when you know that you're right. After stabilising the relationship, try to replace the argument and scolding with understanding the other person's point of view.

My reason is simple : Those who cannot come to understand and accept you initially does not love you.

2. Most of the times when you're being captured by a camera, you'll feel that somehow you don't look good in the camera. Don't worry. You're on the right track. It shows that you do have certain confidence in your looks and you portray your confidence when you're looking at the mirror. The camera doesn't capture your perception/confidence of how good looking you are.

To prove my point : Ask those around you whether do they think you look different comparing the photos taken of you and the real you.

Of course, there are gifted photographers who are able to capture peoples' feelings. Hmm... please be confident before letting them to capture you using their lens... if not you'll have a nightmare LOL...

3. A monetary gain by one means a loss for the other party. Do not then spend unneccessarily (even though you may have legally earn it) cause the other party may need the money more than you do.

4. STI is at 1600 as of today. If i am to state now that the stock market will "close down prematurely", i supposed no one will believe me.

There had been reports stating about the paper losses that the richest in Singapore faced. But their actual assests havent been dropping by much. This was because the prices of their companies stock doesn't determine their assests value.

Moreover, the current stock prices does not reflect the true value of the companies, it is merely the (a) LAST DONE PRICE of the stock that has been exchanged (buy/sell) by two parties. If the sellers dont sell, there is no way that the prices of the stock will drop. Most of the investors know or have been taught that investing is for long term and one shouldn't sell during a crash (cause history had proven that the stock market will rebound). But history is history. We (b) shouldn't use the speed of growth after world war 2 and assume that we'll still grow at that rate.

The scary thing is, the LAST DONE PRICE (c) can be easily manipulated with just two super rich guys in the market (or two government investment institutions)! Even with the (d) closure of the stock market, companies can still operate. And when it closes, it doesn't matter when you could have hold on the stocks for another 50 years, cause they will just give you a payout equivalent to the last done price.

Some will argue saying that you'll find bargains during the current crisis, buying in undervalued stocks. Don't do so unless you have the capital of buying enough to be a major stockholder in the company like Warrent Buffett. What if the prices of the future stocks don't move at all? What if the stock market simply closes? A more possible scenario will be the freezing of the stock market infinitely.

Don't assume that it'll never happen. There's always a first time for everything.

And thus "investing" in stocks is a gamble, a much bigger gamble than what you think you'll be facing.

5. Lastly, have anyone of you thought of how to safeguard your assests and money in times of war? If you have no plans, whatever you have now, will just disappear...

You can't be possibly thinking that D bank will be giving your money back to you in times of war... what are the chances that you'll still have your money after the war when all the buildings are razed?

Don't forget, even today when we're living peacefully, busying with your own stuffs, handling your own problems, they might not even have enough paper notes with them if all of us are to withdraw our money.

Banks in sound shape? That's what the MAS said... But then to use the financial statements of the banks (a piece of paper/or many pieces of paper) as an assurance???

So... think of where to place your money and how you can survive without it...

trying to do the right thing

2008-10-07T12:52:00.004+08:00

Hai......

Lol... I can keep procrastinating... What a guy i am.

I supposed that it isn't important anymore for me defining love. Or doing comparison between a boy-girl relationship vs friends...

Or is it really so?

Hmm... Hmm... Everything is actually fine...

I think i should stop admiring others...

I should stop thinking about the good points/character that all my friends have...

I even think that my younger brother can be a genius in time to come...

I am doubting myself... always saying to myself that my brain is rusty liao...

By the way, my memory is indeed getting worse...

Or rather my brain memory seems to be working like RAM (where the information is lost after the power is switched off)...

Haix...

I do wonder why am i still laughing... Maths test is coming in about 30 mins time...

I read through almost all... but...

Haha... let me not worry about it

I havent even know how difficult will the paper be.

There's only one thing that i'd like to do nowadays.

Sitting down by a seaside, hugging joycelyn (from behind) looking at the sunset/sunrise.

*shy*

"spoilt brat"

2008-09-18T10:29:00.002+08:00

I am fortunate. A really fortunate guy being blessed with almost everything (except not being very tall)

But, it's also because of it that i basically did nothing.

I can even use the word "spoilt brat" to describe me.

The many characters that's within me allows me to take the path that i want.

I can choose to be hardworking instead of "lazing around"

I am bright and yet i have made the SAME mistake again.

More importantly, as long as i live comfortably, as long as i don't find a good reason to live in the future... i will remain to just exist in this society, watching how people living their life to the fullest.

No doubt, the time that i waste now = the chances that i will lose in the future (not being able to draw a high starting pay). It seems that this reason isn't enough to get my engine started.

There's a lot of time whereby i had this tremendous guilt momentarily.... but it just disappear.
It doesn't last...

Maybe, juz maybe... i will hope for what i have to disappear. To disappear... so that i will treasure, so that i will know how important and how fortunate i am today.

It doesn't mean that we are right... when we are not wrong

2008-09-02T18:11:00.005+08:00

Do we remember the last time we had defended ourselves by saying "I'm not in the wrong"?

How convenient and easy it was as we only needed to give one reason for our stand.

But we were not right either.

If we were to recount back those situation, would we be comfortable in saying that "I'm right"?

Most probably not.

Because we're aware that we could have done it in a different (or better) way... ...

It's so true...

2008-08-31T12:54:00.004+08:00

双鱼座终极完美分析

看过很多关于双鱼的各种传说，分析，解释。似乎无一例外的把双鱼当作了一个女人的星座，动不动就是流眼泪，唉声叹气。可惜可叹，如果双鱼真的只是这样的一个星座，那么可以说没有一个人愿意去做双鱼，而历史上也不会有什么著名的双鱼人物了。

========== 　　最本质的部分：思考　========== 　　
双鱼座的最本质特点是什么？善良？懦弱？温柔？不是，我告诉你，是思考（在很多情况下，是过多的思考）。　　
是的，双鱼座的一切特性，都来自于他过多的思考，或许世上没有第二个星座比双鱼座更能洞察别人的心理，更能分析事情的本质。　　
你可以称之为敏感，但是一旦这种敏感能够正确的使用，那么没有人能比双鱼座更快的学会人情事故，在这一方面，有一个双鱼座的伟人做的尤其出色，他的名字是周恩来。　　　　
因为思考的太多，所以双鱼座的人就算不是真正善良的，也至少是表面善良的。对于双鱼来说，善良与其说是本质，不如说是双鱼喜欢的一种生活方式，以善良的方式活着，是轻松而又受人尊敬的，一般的双鱼座很早就能洞察到这一点。　　　　
再谈谈温柔，这一点，不管是哪篇文章，都不会忘了提双鱼座的温柔。是的，双鱼的确是温柔的。因为双鱼总能敏感的体会到对方的细微变化，时刻了解到对方心意的转变，表现在行动上，就是能尽快的知道，什么时候应该为女孩披上自己的外衣，什么时候应该停下手里的活，转过身去和女友好好的说话。　　

========== 　　与众不同的部分：信仰　========== 　　
双鱼的信仰就是没有信仰！　　在双鱼的世界里面，没有绝对的对和错，如果发生了一件事，他第一件做的事情是去理解这件事，去分析这件事，而不是去判断这件事是对的还是错的。　　下面引用一段话说明双鱼的这个特点：　　
“鱼座男人没有偏见，没有亲自穿著鹿皮走几哩路，他不会评断印地安人；没有试试赤脚走路，他也不会评断裸体主义者。甚至这些做了，他还是会满心谅解而不会过于批评。他很少冷酷的指控，倒是每每温暖的忍耐，他甚至会试试了解他的岳母，天底下有几个男人能这样？海王子拥有罕见的同情精神，他的朋友向他吐露秘密而从不担忧会把他吓著，要吓到鱼起码需要两吨以上的炸弹。如果你和我以及你的鱼儿三人同坐一室，一个男人走进来告诉我们他有些担忧，因为他重婚，在四个州各有一个老婆，你可能眼睛瞪得大大瞧他，冒著火，心想监狱是最适合他的地方，我可能鄙夷的说他是个卑鄙的流氓，但你的鱼儿很可能问：“那四州？你爱不爱她们其中任何一个？”鱼很好奇，但防震。对他来说，这个家伙需要一缸子同情以及好得要命的律师。” 　　　　有一位伟人利用了这点特性，结果成就了科学史上的神话，他就是爱因斯坦。　　

========== 　　双鱼的致命缺点：懦弱　========== 　　
现实中的双鱼座确实给人太多的失望，懦弱，多疑，自卑，优柔寡断，没有主见.....一个双鱼座或许没有上面全部的特点，但至少会有一，二个。就算是伟大如周恩来，有时候难免有些优柔寡断和没有主见，当然，这种时候不多。　　　　
造成双鱼座优柔寡断的原因很简单。因为同样一个选择，在一个射手看来，只需要考虑2样东西，但是在双鱼看来，却需要考虑10样东西，因为他想的实在是太多了。简单的说一句话，双鱼都会想到它会给周围的人带来多少种不同的影响，它会让人对自己有怎么样的看法，会不会造成误解。（虽然很多时候，双鱼会冲动的把一些话脱口而出）　　　　
至于多疑，这点和自卑联系的比较紧密。虽然双鱼座能轻易的了解对方的意图，看透事情的真相，但是却往往不能坚持住自己的观点，这种不能坚持大多数是因为双鱼座自己不愿接受这个事实，也有很多时候是因为双鱼对自己不够自信。关于前一点，比较突出的一个例子是，双鱼座的女孩不到男孩子直截了当的告诉她，他不爱她了，女孩就总是还抱有一线希望，虽然女孩心里明白的很。懦弱呢？关于这点，和信仰联系在一起。你一定觉得很奇怪，懦弱和信仰又有什么关系呢？　　
信仰是种很可怕的力量，他可以让一个人做出平时不敢做的事情，拥有不该拥有的勇气，牺牲不该牺牲的东西。而双鱼恰恰是没有一丁点信仰的，就算有，也不过是为了给生活加一点调味剂，或是给自己找一个避难所。对于双鱼来说，自己能过舒适，安稳的日子，比什么都重要。富贵如浮云，最想的开这点的就是双鱼座了。至于爱国什么的，酒饱饭足的双鱼可以慷慨激昂，也会不惜重金施于，但是只是建立在自己有好日子过的前提下。　　
接下来，可以解释下双鱼的懦弱了。　　
只要能让自己和爱人平平安安，有什么不可以忍受的呢？什么尊严，什么气节，见鬼去吧。所以只要不把双鱼逼到绝境，你尽可以嘲弄双鱼的懦弱。每条鱼的忍受范围都不同，但一般都比正常人多那么一点点。但是如果你不小心让一条鱼觉得无路可走了，那么你真的要小心了。鱼可以践踏人间一切法律，无视所有道理，更不会考虑自己的尊严和人格。你务必要相信这一点，虽然这种时候很少，但那只不过是因为上帝不想让人们经常看到地狱的惨状。　　

========== 　　双鱼的最大优点：感情 ========== 　　
与其说双鱼是个为爱情而活的星座，不如说双鱼是个为感情而活的星座。　　
对于双鱼来说，世界上最重要的东西是感情，一条精神上满足的鱼，可以没有其他东西，就已经是最幸福的人（当然，绝大多数情况下，没有其他东西，很难精神上满足）。　　
任何感情对于双鱼来说都是重要的，爱情很重要，但不见得会比亲情更重要，在双鱼的眼中。　　　　对于鱼来说，感情是单纯的，是单独的。鱼可以原谅对方的一切，只要那个人是真心对他好的。你可以十恶不赦，可以吃喝嫖赌，可以之前是人尽可夫的妓女，可以是个卑鄙无耻的骗子，都可以原谅，只要鱼能确定你是真心的喜欢他，对他好。但是请注意一点，大部分的鱼都比你聪明，不要以为你的小伎俩可以骗到鱼，你是不是真心喜欢他，他比谁都清楚。　　　　
对于一个男孩子来说，双鱼女孩能给你对于一个女孩子想要的一切，温柔，爱你不顾一切，可爱（很多时候是装的，鱼大多数是很聪明的），体贴..... 　　
对于一个女孩子来说，双鱼男孩....嗯..... 看你的运气了，如果你遇到的鱼是个没有志气，不想做事，玩玩乐乐的鱼，而且他已经25岁左右了，那么好心的提醒你，还是尽早离开他吧。除非你是个富婆，或者你只是找个情人（没有人比双鱼更适合做情人了：安全快乐而无副作用）。否则，你会经历世间最凄凉的婚姻和生活，阿门................ 　　　　
那么如果你遇到的鱼是有事业心，能上进，肯做事的鱼，或者干脆就是事业有成的鱼，那么真的是恭喜你，你是千万少女中最幸运的一个，再挑剔的女人也无法对一个有上进心有事业的鱼有更多的要求了。你可以得到世界上一切的温柔和快乐，包括用钱买的到的和用钱买不到的，鱼很乐意把他的一切奉献给他爱的人，看到他爱的人开心，他会更开心。大部分的鱼的“一切”仅仅只有感情，而没有物质，但是我们现在讨论的是最优秀的那种鱼，那种能随时把名望和财富送给你的鱼，现在你知道你有多幸运了吧。

============= 　　提到感情不得不提的：公平　　============= 　　
很奇怪吗？公平对于双鱼来说，是个很重要的单词。　　双鱼没有普遍意义上的价值观，是非观，你不能用这件事这样做是对的，那样做是错的来说服一个双鱼座。永远记住，鱼的世界里很少有对错。　　
那么鱼又是怎么来处理他和别人（尤其是爱人的关系）呢？就是公平。　　　　
如果鱼曾经有过十几，二十个女朋友，那么他就不会在意你以前有过多少个男朋友，如果鱼一个不小心跑出去玩了一夜情，那么你一夜情的时候，他也会选择无所谓好吧，就算你的鱼纯情的一塌糊涂，你是他（她）的第一次，他也可以原谅你的曾经花心，一时花心，可能会的花心，只要你能用足够的关心和真心的喜欢弥补。鱼大致兑换了下你的关心（兑换比例只有天知道了，呵呵），如果觉得双方大致公平的（相对于他对于你的感情付出），那么他就无所谓，就会原谅你。　　　　
所以和鱼相处是件很简单的事情，只要你能保证你给他的和他为你付出的差不多多，就可以了。至于伦理道德嘛...嗯，讲真的，鱼从来不是教条主义者。　　　　
反过来，如果你让鱼觉得你对他的关心不够多，对他的爱不够多（不够多是指没有他给你的多），那么鱼会在痛苦之后，也相应的减少对你的关心和爱，不要怀疑，这方面，鱼比谁都表现的现实和斤斤计较。

========== 　　感情中的完美主义　　========== 　　
鱼在意的东西很少，所以很不幸，鱼对于他在意的东西就是完美主义者的态度。　　　　
对于鱼来说，完美的情人不是忠贞不二的情人，不是事业爱情兼顾的情人，也不是外形完美的情人。鱼要求的是“完美的爱”。　　　　
你可以不经常说我爱你，但是你说的时候，一定要是真心实意。　　
你可以很少陪他逛街，但是你陪的时候，一定要是真的开开心心。　　
你也可以对他说很少的情话，但是你要保证，你对别人说的情话更少，而且你对他说的是真心的话。　　　　
对于鱼来说，欺骗和做作是最不可原谅的。很多人以为简简单单的对鱼说几句我爱你，固定性的发些短信问候鱼，经常为鱼买些好东西就能让鱼觉得被爱了。真不幸，大部分鱼都聪明过了头，一般都能轻松辨别那些举动是真心的，那些不过是手段（如果你曾经用这些手段征服过双鱼女生，也别得意，只不过是双鱼女生比男生更难以拒绝别人而已）。　　　　
所以，请诚实一点对待鱼，爱他多少就给他多少，他也会给你同样多。这至少比他生你的气好的多，不是吗？　　

========== 　　双鱼真的浪漫吗？　　========== 　　
所有的星座解释都会说双鱼是浪漫的，但是所有和双鱼（特别是双鱼男生，一般浪漫都是指男生做的事情）接触过的人，都往往感觉不到双鱼的浪漫，到底是为什么呢？难道双鱼并不浪漫？　　　　我给你个肯定的答案，双鱼绝对浪漫，他脑子里面的浪漫点子不仅包含了所有好莱坞大片的经典场景，还有更多他自己的原创镜头，他时不时的都在幻想浪漫的场面，一个鱼可能在他18的时候就开始想他30岁结婚的布置。　　　　
那么为什么现实中是两样呢？因为2点，自卑和善良。　　
前一点很好理解，大部分的浪漫需要自信。很多时候，不是鱼不想浪漫，而是不好意思和没胆子那么做，你能理解是吧，呵呵。　　　　
那么自信的鱼呢？为什么他也不浪漫？　　
因为他没有遇到合适的人，因为他善良。　　　　
双鱼的爱情大部分是有些被动的。鱼总是轻易的喜欢上一个女孩子（注意，我用的单词是喜欢），然后开始和这个女孩开始交往，然后十有八九，会发现这个女孩不是能给自己完美的爱的女孩（这是肯定的，遇到最合适自己的人哪有那么容易），鱼很现实的知道，他和这个女孩不可能有将来的，2个人能拥有只能是一段回忆。那么对鱼来说，绝大部分的情话都会说不出口，因为鱼自己知道这些话都是骗人的，很多浪漫的举动做不出来，因为鱼不敢让女孩陷的太深，怕分手的那一天女孩太伤心。很多人说处女，金牛的人想的多，其实鱼想的并不比他们少，只不过犹犹豫豫又舍不得的鱼，就算明了的知道和女孩没有将来，也不会点破，只会静静的维持，享受拥有的每一天。但是这样的情况下，鱼的善良就让鱼忍住了很多浪漫的情话和行动。　　　　
我这么说是不是显的鱼很高尚？呵呵，没有什么真正高尚的人。鱼能如此的为女孩着想，是因为这么做能让鱼觉得自己很伟大，有一种悲剧式的美感，鱼愿意让自己沉浸在这种自我的意淫中。　　　　当然，这样至少比不顾别人的死活，只图自己开心要好的多是不是？所以还是应该为鱼们鼓鼓掌的。　　　　
所以，如果有一天，你看到一条浪漫无比的鱼，不要怀疑，他已经认定你们有个美好的未来，他已经知道他不会给你太多的伤心了，那你还犹豫什么？上去拥抱你的幸福吧。

============ 　　结语：什么样是好的双鱼？　　============ 　　
双鱼有很多缺点，但是大多数都可以原谅。除了2条，懒惰和犹豫。　　　　
而双鱼要成为一条好鱼，所需要的东西很简单，事业。　　　　
其实不用去提醒鱼们其他的事情了，他们自己都能想明白。只需能保证鱼能稳步进行他们的事业就可以了。　　　　
一旦鱼用心去赚钱了，那么他肯定能赚到钱。但是这一点很难，真的很难，如果有一天，你看到一条生龙活虎的鱼，千万不要放过，好好的捆住他，很有可能，他会带给你所有的梦想.

A MUZ READ... ... (I write blog for people to read and understand de)

2008-08-27T23:05:00.003+08:00

I always thought that i am not self-centered.

I'm wrong. It's just that i have no aim and motivation to do anything else other than...

Or rather i can sacrifice every other thing for...

Time to do what my primary occupation (full time mechanical engineering ntu student) needs me to do...

I very much needs and dream for her to be by my side, to give encouragement, to support...

But then ... to get encouragement and support without me even trying?

What a joke!

Haha... Self-criticising.

For the past 4Wks and 3 Days, i had only been to lab and techcom.

It will not be easy catching up.

P.S Maybe, my unhappiness was a result of not even trying to argue those that i believe i was right. I couldn't put down or forget those matter collectively, and that's why my mood easily dampens

The day after feeling emo...

2008-08-19T09:42:00.004+08:00

Hmm... I just want to be physically closer, as close as possible.

I think it is then possible to rely on each other emotionally.

I pretty like the scenario where someone had used her leg to *kick (nudge) my leg.

Or the way dear shared the stick of satay with me.

Just maybe, i should be starting to study (I'm in school but I've been missing almost 8 days of lessons, my ears would never have peace if my mother would to find out)

And then in the mean-time to work as a financial consultant.

Finding a well-paid job after graduation.

Repay all debts.

To live comfortably (As in there isn't a need for her to be an employee, i guess she'll then be closer to me)

And then to go back to "gambling".

Haha... so incorrigible...

But i simply dont care, cause i have a strong believe in it.

Scrolling up to check...

Hmm...

Study study...

mixed feelings...

2008-07-24T01:11:00.003+08:00

i wanted so much to know of their problems, to help solve their problems.

but i doubt i cannot do much even if i force them to let me know what had happened to them.

and it may even result in our relationship being strained.

sorry, to my parents, my girlfriend (joycelyn), friends, colleagues and acquaintance.

i'm not good at using words to console u people.

i always believe in giving a hug, and to let you all cry on my shoulders.

i'm just not that courageous.

even so, i would want you all to be carefree, to find others whom can use the right words and actions to make u feel better.

i'm feeling sad when i can't help to solve your problems.

Being Loved

2008-07-13T21:31:00.001+08:00

My definition of being loved is simple.

give me the encouragement i need.
asked me about the things i like and the places i like to go. (to go together if possible)
sacrifice some of your time for me (to do things that you might not like)
lie your head on my shoulder while holding my hand.*
give me a hug occassionally.*

* (Laughable? I think not.)

I'm afraid.

I don't want to be in a relationship without mutual love.

Or maybe love in today context = Going to movie, shopping and dinner with the one you call darling after both of you have agreed on where to go?

True, A boy and a girl can go into a relationship without anyone of them sacrificing.

Yet, i don't feel good in this kind of relationship.

It's simple. I believe that if any one of them love the other, he/she will do more.

I don't want it to be just my wish.

My definition of being loved.