mixed feelings...

i wanted so much to know of their problems, to help solve their problems.

but i doubt i cannot do much even if i force them to let me know what had happened to them.

and it may even result in our relationship being strained.

sorry, to my parents, my girlfriend (joycelyn), friends, colleagues and acquaintance.

i'm not good at using words to console u people.

i always believe in giving a hug, and to let you all cry on my shoulders.

i'm just not that courageous.

even so, i would want you all to be carefree, to find others whom can use the right words and actions to make u feel better.

i'm feeling sad when i can't help to solve your problems.

Being Loved

My definition of being loved is simple.

give me the encouragement i need.
asked me about the things i like and the places i like to go. (to go together if possible)
sacrifice some of your time for me (to do things that you might not like)
lie your head on my shoulder while holding my hand.*
give me a hug occassionally.*

* (Laughable? I think not.)

I'm afraid.

I don't want to be in a relationship without mutual love.

Or maybe love in today context = Going to movie, shopping and dinner with the one you call darling after both of you have agreed on where to go?

True, A boy and a girl can go into a relationship without anyone of them sacrificing.

Yet, i don't feel good in this kind of relationship.

It's simple. I believe that if any one of them love the other, he/she will do more.

I don't want it to be just my wish.

My definition of being loved.